ups n downs

the trip has been postponed to later months due to the political unrest in thailand. Sigh. Now we have to do SPOC, vision screening....but its not too bad i guess. I mean we are still going, just you know later than planned.

And i got my new phone yesterday!!

defective eye

woo hoo! 9 more days to cold water baths and elephant rides.

hmm tmrw gonna get a hiking bag and shoes maybe @ queensway for e trip. Should I?
got two jabs today for tetanus and typhoid. My week consists of specs recyling,oph, ret and other odd jobs for the trip.

today we learnt how to take fundus picture... so cool and i have PPA!!! That one only high myope/glaucoma supposed to have.

so far i have scar on my cornea and a congenital opacity in my lens, PPA @ retina and some other defect which my teacher had said and i cannot remember. Lol my eye has so many so called "defects".Hope i can update more here instead of once in a turquiose moon ;b

vanilla twlight :)

weeee i am back!!! haha i must be the only one excited for me.lol.whatever. what prompted me to come back to write is a song by owlcity- specifically vanilla twilight
i love that song and i had to write it somewhere. And i have news, i am going to thailand(chiang rai) during march for 14 days for my ITP.

i don't understand why GOOGLE has a happy holidays logo? i thought holidays were just over??? now i am trying to do my homework...and oh yes almost forgot, i am reading a weirdass storybook titled a widow for a year. its written in third person and i am not used to such books and it does not help that the story has a weird quality, i just can't put my finger on what is exactly the cause of the book's weirdness. now i am just rambling. back to homework with vanilla twilight in the background. bye.

The stars lean down to kiss you
I lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

cause i'll dose of safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
i'd send a postcard to you dear
cause i wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
but its not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly

the silence isn't so bad
till i look at my hands and feel sad
the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
though i haven't slept in two days
cold nostalgia chills me
to the bone

drenched in vanilla twilight
i'll sit on the front porch all night
waist deep in thought because
when i think of you i don't feel so alone

as many times as i blink
i'll think of you tonight
i'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and haevy wings grow lighter
i'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And i'll forget the world that i knew
but i swear i won't forget you
oh, if my voice could reach
back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling, i wish you were here
.......
xooooox

pink walls

Pink walls i would be leaving you
A dream of the past gone cue
For the past ten years stuck like glue
But soon i would be leaving you

Rose pink walls who would care
Not that i did but its not fair
To be ripped from your cozy lair
Like a wild cub from its mother bear

Tangled in my secrets and lies
Pink walls enveloped my entire size
Kept me safe from all prying eyes
Concealed from all even the wise

Dreading our imminent seperation
Ploughing through sheer desperation
Disregarding meaningless compensations
Cluthed on to my rose pink walls
with renewed strength and determination

reconciled <3

wow so long since my last post. Since then have gotten sick, recovered,done with my my end of sem exams, done shopping for hari raya, met up with friends... hahaha ok ok i know my bad for not sharing. Now am counting down the days to hari raya and contemplating between getting heels at aldo or buying makeup at MAC cosmetics with my hangbao $$$. I know, talk about planning ahead.

The colours from the marilyn minter collectioin look so excitinggg!
Glitter
Gold Sparkling chunky gold
Reflects Copper Sparkling saffron
Reflects Rust Sparkling warm red
Fuchsia Sparkling fuchsia



and the pigment colours just screamed out to me
Pigment
Brash & Bold Bright magenta
Push the Edge Deep bright purple with pearl
Cocomotion Dirty gold with a olive undertone with gold sparkle
Heritage Rouge Dirty brown plum

filling spaces

Got back exam results marks were ok-ok lor.

just watched material girls and hilary duff can't act to save her life. GOD, URGGH her phony cutsey voice was really grating on the ears. If she actually spoke like that in real life she deserves a punch on her perfect but plastic nose!!! the life jacket for this movie were the hot bfs of the sisters and of course the clothes worn by the sisters. But even some of the clothes were pretty ugly. I used to actually like hilary duff. But that was before i saw her act. I know i have been late in finding this out but its better late than never. After scrutinizing her face i agree she looks like a horse.

cls and exams.

It has been super long since my last update. Two words: EXAMS/LAZY.
So no update haha. Exams were okay. No results yet but i know its going to be mediocore or slightly towards the not so good side.------

And now for my new obsession : Christian louboutin!!!!
I have vowed to myself that i will at least own a pair...there are sooooooooobeautiful!!! ahhhh!!! maybe a classic in black,nude i know my choices seem more towards the boring side but once when i at least have the essential might look at others but for now i just have to be content with drooling all over my laptop :(

ok feast your eyes...

ROUTINE

This whole routine is getting old so am i and so are you- this is how life feels like

SP makeup artiste club interview

Today i went for the makeup club interview...the questions asked were pretty basic stuff. I was fairly relaxed during the interview... i was actually having a nervous while waiting for my turn; but when my my turn came i just kinda calmed down. They asked questions like why do want to be in this club?, have you got experience? what can you do to make eyes look bigger and the worst question... if a makeup event clashes with your classes which would you pick... i figured it was a trick question to see who is irresponsible enough to skip classes. :p
I gave my most pained look and said 'uhh no i would go to my class'. So hopefully that was the right answer to the question. I really want to get in. But if i don't its okay as well.(Just reminding myself about the worst) I am a melancholic so its in the blood.

The long and the short of it....(Paradox poem)

This poem is so clever...can anybody figure it out? i understood the first 4 paragraghs but trying to understand the last 2 gets very confusing even after reading the explanation. But i love it anyway.

Why is it that long is shorter than short,
And short is longer than long?
Why is long not longer than short
And short not shorter than long?

Why is not shorter shorter than short,
As longer is longer than long?
And why is longer shorter than shorter
And shorter not shorter than long?

If shorter was short and short was shorter,
Then shorter'd be shorter than short.
But if long were longer and longer were long
Then longer'd be shorter than long.

I hereby suggest that shorter be long
And longer be shorter instead.
Then long would be longer
'Thus longer than short
And short could be just as it was.

But if longer is shorter, is shorter longer,
And shorter not long as I said?
And if long is now longer and shorter now long,
Is short still as short as it was?

Can longer be shorter, whilst shorter is long,
Or is shorter now longer not long?
And if long is now longer and shorter is long,
Is long not shorter as well?


Explanation in the website http://www.curiouser.co.uk/paradoxes/word.htm

labour day

not written any poem for some time, so typical of me.
anyways today is labour day YAY.

Thursday i bought a novel by Jodi Picoult - sister's keeper from my school they had a 30% discount so grabbed them at 12 bucks:D
Its a heart wrenching story, dissolved me to tears, almost...but the story has such an unexpeced turn of fate. Just shows how fragile life is.

Hmm i just learned how to do retinoscopy with the my retinoscope, the concept behind it is not that hard but performing it is tough. I am such a blur sotong i had to have eplained to me twice and still i had doubts here and there but its a start anyway.

back to school

hmm......school's started its still the same old boring routine shit. But i heard from many that year 2 is where you experience the wrath of OPTOMETRY. I have like 5 modules plus 1 gem module. My gem module for this semester is psychology and counselling, i have it tommorow.

And the weekend would be spent doing some reports. Yes i have reports to hand in already and itS like the fourth day of year two. The reports are nothing too difficult but still its crap.tommorow is gonna be a long day at school till 8-effing5!

I don't even know when i became this person who works so hard for academic success. I know others who work harder but maybe they were born this way or whatever but not me.I am a lazy bitch :0 yeah gotta admit that. I have to work harder than ever to get ahead and i asked myself issit just to be ranked above others? Partially true nope 1/4true, humans are humans we like to be on top but that really is not all for me i have a hidden agenda for wanting to do well. If i don't my worst fear might come true and even if i suceed doing well it does not mean i am off the hook.well.


and almost all my classmates are supahsmart people so i have to workkkkkk my ass off...


and i hope to write more poems even after school starts... :)


Back to some hardcore studying.yuck.

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Baby I'm bad, I'm the fear in your eyes
That hate in your heart has been branded with my name
Maylene and the sons of disaster- Darkest of kin <3<3<3

Sweet Slavery

A waft of you
Deadly seduction
Sweet slavery
My addiction


Though you taunt
Pull my strings
I succumb to you
For my thrills


Chasing a mirage
Ran to my end
Into your arms
Straight to hell


Voices cried
Out to me
Shaking me, back
To reality


Deep down inside
I knew my fate
Surrendered myself
To destiny

I sway my limbs
Dance to your tune
Heedless of danger
I follow your lead

Nashira.B

Vicious Cycle

A poem i wrote....

As memories unravel
Realizations are made
My mind marvels
At all I have missed

It has been said
It is never too late
To seize what’s left

And it’s still too early
To determine my end
I say to myself

As the sun sets
And flowers wither
I reveal my feathers
Set to soar

But all are gone
Oblivion
I bawl at life
Shriek in despair

Bereft of hope
Sunk in stupor
I avert my eyes
And loose hold

Out of the blue
As it arrives
I turn my back
Give it a miss

It’s a vicious cycle
I live to regret

-Nashira. B

Exercise and

so nothing much up....
I want to exercise i have not exercised since god knows when.
I will ask kulsum to follow me to gym cos if i go alone it would be embarassing and boring.
I think one day my computer would bust as i have been using it for so many hours and i wish i had more friends who i am actually interested to talk to.

And i have been listening non-stop(almost) to your guardian angel- Red jumpsuit apparatus it makes me yearn.

i always have troble coming up with a title-

SO its been quite sometime since my last update...
Quite a number of stuff had happened.

Last week or the week before i can't really remember I went to vivo with xiang hua and her sis. Was fun. I bought some MAC stuff which amounted to,a frigging $113. But it is money well spent i must say. I bought a blending brush, 2 e/s( amber light, brownscript)Lipglass(pink lemonade)







AND i just ordered the 88 matte eyeshadow palette. I'm soo excited to try it out can't wait to get it. $SG38

and I got a FACEBOOK account. I thought i will never get one. But jumped onto the bandwagon, oh well. The games are fun and kulsum made it for me. Thanks girl :D.


OH and i was supposed to attend a survey at saffron hill research company at 6.30pm this wednesday and i was late when they had reminded time and again to be on time. So typical of me. Actually it was because of my mum. Anyway i reached there at 7pm and the discussion had commenced so i cannot join in. The funny part was the woman who was trying to explain to me why i cannot join discussion.
She went like this : 'It'S NOT THAT YOU ARE NOT GOOD OR ANYTHING OR THAT WE CHANGED OUR MIND ABOUT YOU IT'S JUST THAT WE hAVE ENOUGH PEOPLE IN THE ROOM SO YOU ARE NOT REQUIRED FOR THE DISSCUSION.'

It was something along those lines can't remeber her exact words... But the point is why can't you just say that you are late so you can't join them instead of it's not that u are not good enough urmm wats the point of that??? I looked like i needed reassurance??

But the good part: i got the incentive even without joining the discussion. Yes i got $50 out of travelling till tiong bahru how good is that. Apparently they always make sure more than enough people are signed up for the discussion. But they still give the money to those who turn up but who are not in the discussion. How cool is that!

Some jobs i had applied to had given me positive replies but it is not the job i want. too bad nashira :(

i should update more frequently so that i do not have to type so much at one go.

Blogging is fun, forward another ten years it would be soo fun reading what i had writen :D

Love the outfit by ashley olsen

# Dress like: Ashley Olsen - by CHANELL. on Polyvore.com

Exam results :)

I JUST received my exam results!
Not bad. Soo much better than last term but there's still room for improvement.

Ocular Anatomy: A

Ocular Physiology: A

Intro Pathology: A

Physiological and Visual Optics:B+ Yay at last i get something nice for this subject

Report writing and Presentation:B+

Ocular Microbiology:B

Character Development:B Wow not even B+ for this!? I suck:( seriously

Better Speech for Better Pronounciation: Distinction My first dist in Poly

Tromborg + Rant

Yeah i am giving up... soo sad of me :( I just have about a month of holiday left so i don't know but just maybe some company i hd applied to would call me? wishful thinking. Okay on to other topics.

I just collected my tromborg mineral foundation after so long and guess what the colur is too dark for my skin tone. I had my doubts about the colour but the makeup artist was confident that she had chosen the right colour so i went with her choice. But it's not really a waste as it goes well with my mum's skin tone. And my mum got me other stuff as well. Oh, the perks of shopping with your mum :p. She got me the healing aloe vera gel and mud mask mineral rich dead sea black mud. The aloe vera gel smells lovely and smooths on the skin delightfully :). But the mud mask is a little harsh on the skin and has a burning sensation but leaves the skin fine textured and smooth to the touch.

And i got a nice shock after reading someone's blog. I am quoted word for word. Seriously, its melodramatic of that person. If he is so unhappy he should have confronted me. But it is NOT my fault that you got to know about the change of classroom venue for the pathology examination through a person from another class cos guess what i just knew when i arrived at school about a few minutes to spare before the exam. I would like someone to enlighten me why was i only informed on the day of the exam maybe about 5 minutes to spare then maybe i can explain why i had not informed the rest of the class. And why would i not want to inform the class if i had known.

I may not be the best asst class rep but i tried and thats all that matters. To me. If you want any other explanations sure. You can ask me.

jobless :(

Still jobless:( but i am still on the lookout I hope i don't give up soon i want to keep looking but the way the whole job finding thing is going i just feel like abandoning the thought of finding one. But what keeps me going is that i can eventually get my damned MAC brushes and a few other stuff which i am in dire need of if i ever get a job.

Going to my aunt's house later cause she cut her finger accidently and got it stitched so going to visit her later.