pink walls

Pink walls i would be leaving you
A dream of the past gone cue
For the past ten years stuck like glue
But soon i would be leaving you

Rose pink walls who would care
Not that i did but its not fair
To be ripped from your cozy lair
Like a wild cub from its mother bear

Tangled in my secrets and lies
Pink walls enveloped my entire size
Kept me safe from all prying eyes
Concealed from all even the wise

Dreading our imminent seperation
Ploughing through sheer desperation
Disregarding meaningless compensations
Cluthed on to my rose pink walls
with renewed strength and determination

reconciled <3

wow so long since my last post. Since then have gotten sick, recovered,done with my my end of sem exams, done shopping for hari raya, met up with friends... hahaha ok ok i know my bad for not sharing. Now am counting down the days to hari raya and contemplating between getting heels at aldo or buying makeup at MAC cosmetics with my hangbao $$$. I know, talk about planning ahead.

The colours from the marilyn minter collectioin look so excitinggg!
Glitter
Gold Sparkling chunky gold
Reflects Copper Sparkling saffron
Reflects Rust Sparkling warm red
Fuchsia Sparkling fuchsia



and the pigment colours just screamed out to me
Pigment
Brash & Bold Bright magenta
Push the Edge Deep bright purple with pearl
Cocomotion Dirty gold with a olive undertone with gold sparkle
Heritage Rouge Dirty brown plum

filling spaces

Got back exam results marks were ok-ok lor.

just watched material girls and hilary duff can't act to save her life. GOD, URGGH her phony cutsey voice was really grating on the ears. If she actually spoke like that in real life she deserves a punch on her perfect but plastic nose!!! the life jacket for this movie were the hot bfs of the sisters and of course the clothes worn by the sisters. But even some of the clothes were pretty ugly. I used to actually like hilary duff. But that was before i saw her act. I know i have been late in finding this out but its better late than never. After scrutinizing her face i agree she looks like a horse.

cls and exams.

It has been super long since my last update. Two words: EXAMS/LAZY.
So no update haha. Exams were okay. No results yet but i know its going to be mediocore or slightly towards the not so good side.------

And now for my new obsession : Christian louboutin!!!!
I have vowed to myself that i will at least own a pair...there are sooooooooobeautiful!!! ahhhh!!! maybe a classic in black,nude i know my choices seem more towards the boring side but once when i at least have the essential might look at others but for now i just have to be content with drooling all over my laptop :(

ok feast your eyes...

ROUTINE

This whole routine is getting old so am i and so are you- this is how life feels like

SP makeup artiste club interview

Today i went for the makeup club interview...the questions asked were pretty basic stuff. I was fairly relaxed during the interview... i was actually having a nervous while waiting for my turn; but when my my turn came i just kinda calmed down. They asked questions like why do want to be in this club?, have you got experience? what can you do to make eyes look bigger and the worst question... if a makeup event clashes with your classes which would you pick... i figured it was a trick question to see who is irresponsible enough to skip classes. :p
I gave my most pained look and said 'uhh no i would go to my class'. So hopefully that was the right answer to the question. I really want to get in. But if i don't its okay as well.(Just reminding myself about the worst) I am a melancholic so its in the blood.

The long and the short of it....(Paradox poem)

This poem is so clever...can anybody figure it out? i understood the first 4 paragraghs but trying to understand the last 2 gets very confusing even after reading the explanation. But i love it anyway.

Why is it that long is shorter than short,
And short is longer than long?
Why is long not longer than short
And short not shorter than long?

Why is not shorter shorter than short,
As longer is longer than long?
And why is longer shorter than shorter
And shorter not shorter than long?

If shorter was short and short was shorter,
Then shorter'd be shorter than short.
But if long were longer and longer were long
Then longer'd be shorter than long.

I hereby suggest that shorter be long
And longer be shorter instead.
Then long would be longer
'Thus longer than short
And short could be just as it was.

But if longer is shorter, is shorter longer,
And shorter not long as I said?
And if long is now longer and shorter now long,
Is short still as short as it was?

Can longer be shorter, whilst shorter is long,
Or is shorter now longer not long?
And if long is now longer and shorter is long,
Is long not shorter as well?


Explanation in the website http://www.curiouser.co.uk/paradoxes/word.htm

labour day

not written any poem for some time, so typical of me.
anyways today is labour day YAY.

Thursday i bought a novel by Jodi Picoult - sister's keeper from my school they had a 30% discount so grabbed them at 12 bucks:D
Its a heart wrenching story, dissolved me to tears, almost...but the story has such an unexpeced turn of fate. Just shows how fragile life is.

Hmm i just learned how to do retinoscopy with the my retinoscope, the concept behind it is not that hard but performing it is tough. I am such a blur sotong i had to have eplained to me twice and still i had doubts here and there but its a start anyway.

back to school

hmm......school's started its still the same old boring routine shit. But i heard from many that year 2 is where you experience the wrath of OPTOMETRY. I have like 5 modules plus 1 gem module. My gem module for this semester is psychology and counselling, i have it tommorow.

And the weekend would be spent doing some reports. Yes i have reports to hand in already and itS like the fourth day of year two. The reports are nothing too difficult but still its crap.tommorow is gonna be a long day at school till 8-effing5!

I don't even know when i became this person who works so hard for academic success. I know others who work harder but maybe they were born this way or whatever but not me.I am a lazy bitch :0 yeah gotta admit that. I have to work harder than ever to get ahead and i asked myself issit just to be ranked above others? Partially true nope 1/4true, humans are humans we like to be on top but that really is not all for me i have a hidden agenda for wanting to do well. If i don't my worst fear might come true and even if i suceed doing well it does not mean i am off the hook.well.


and almost all my classmates are supahsmart people so i have to workkkkkk my ass off...


and i hope to write more poems even after school starts... :)


Back to some hardcore studying.yuck.

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Baby I'm bad, I'm the fear in your eyes
That hate in your heart has been branded with my name
Maylene and the sons of disaster- Darkest of kin <3<3<3

Sweet Slavery

A waft of you
Deadly seduction
Sweet slavery
My addiction


Though you taunt
Pull my strings
I succumb to you
For my thrills


Chasing a mirage
Ran to my end
Into your arms
Straight to hell


Voices cried
Out to me
Shaking me, back
To reality


Deep down inside
I knew my fate
Surrendered myself
To destiny

I sway my limbs
Dance to your tune
Heedless of danger
I follow your lead

Nashira.B

Vicious Cycle

A poem i wrote....

As memories unravel
Realizations are made
My mind marvels
At all I have missed

It has been said
It is never too late
To seize what’s left

And it’s still too early
To determine my end
I say to myself

As the sun sets
And flowers wither
I reveal my feathers
Set to soar

But all are gone
Oblivion
I bawl at life
Shriek in despair

Bereft of hope
Sunk in stupor
I avert my eyes
And loose hold

Out of the blue
As it arrives
I turn my back
Give it a miss

It’s a vicious cycle
I live to regret

-Nashira. B

Exercise and

so nothing much up....
I want to exercise i have not exercised since god knows when.
I will ask kulsum to follow me to gym cos if i go alone it would be embarassing and boring.
I think one day my computer would bust as i have been using it for so many hours and i wish i had more friends who i am actually interested to talk to.

And i have been listening non-stop(almost) to your guardian angel- Red jumpsuit apparatus it makes me yearn.

i always have troble coming up with a title-

SO its been quite sometime since my last update...
Quite a number of stuff had happened.

Last week or the week before i can't really remember I went to vivo with xiang hua and her sis. Was fun. I bought some MAC stuff which amounted to,a frigging $113. But it is money well spent i must say. I bought a blending brush, 2 e/s( amber light, brownscript)Lipglass(pink lemonade)







AND i just ordered the 88 matte eyeshadow palette. I'm soo excited to try it out can't wait to get it. $SG38

and I got a FACEBOOK account. I thought i will never get one. But jumped onto the bandwagon, oh well. The games are fun and kulsum made it for me. Thanks girl :D.


OH and i was supposed to attend a survey at saffron hill research company at 6.30pm this wednesday and i was late when they had reminded time and again to be on time. So typical of me. Actually it was because of my mum. Anyway i reached there at 7pm and the discussion had commenced so i cannot join in. The funny part was the woman who was trying to explain to me why i cannot join discussion.
She went like this : 'It'S NOT THAT YOU ARE NOT GOOD OR ANYTHING OR THAT WE CHANGED OUR MIND ABOUT YOU IT'S JUST THAT WE hAVE ENOUGH PEOPLE IN THE ROOM SO YOU ARE NOT REQUIRED FOR THE DISSCUSION.'

It was something along those lines can't remeber her exact words... But the point is why can't you just say that you are late so you can't join them instead of it's not that u are not good enough urmm wats the point of that??? I looked like i needed reassurance??

But the good part: i got the incentive even without joining the discussion. Yes i got $50 out of travelling till tiong bahru how good is that. Apparently they always make sure more than enough people are signed up for the discussion. But they still give the money to those who turn up but who are not in the discussion. How cool is that!

Some jobs i had applied to had given me positive replies but it is not the job i want. too bad nashira :(

i should update more frequently so that i do not have to type so much at one go.

Blogging is fun, forward another ten years it would be soo fun reading what i had writen :D

Love the outfit by ashley olsen

# Dress like: Ashley Olsen - by CHANELL. on Polyvore.com

Exam results :)

I JUST received my exam results!
Not bad. Soo much better than last term but there's still room for improvement.

Ocular Anatomy: A

Ocular Physiology: A

Intro Pathology: A

Physiological and Visual Optics:B+ Yay at last i get something nice for this subject

Report writing and Presentation:B+

Ocular Microbiology:B

Character Development:B Wow not even B+ for this!? I suck:( seriously

Better Speech for Better Pronounciation: Distinction My first dist in Poly

Tromborg + Rant

Yeah i am giving up... soo sad of me :( I just have about a month of holiday left so i don't know but just maybe some company i hd applied to would call me? wishful thinking. Okay on to other topics.

I just collected my tromborg mineral foundation after so long and guess what the colur is too dark for my skin tone. I had my doubts about the colour but the makeup artist was confident that she had chosen the right colour so i went with her choice. But it's not really a waste as it goes well with my mum's skin tone. And my mum got me other stuff as well. Oh, the perks of shopping with your mum :p. She got me the healing aloe vera gel and mud mask mineral rich dead sea black mud. The aloe vera gel smells lovely and smooths on the skin delightfully :). But the mud mask is a little harsh on the skin and has a burning sensation but leaves the skin fine textured and smooth to the touch.

And i got a nice shock after reading someone's blog. I am quoted word for word. Seriously, its melodramatic of that person. If he is so unhappy he should have confronted me. But it is NOT my fault that you got to know about the change of classroom venue for the pathology examination through a person from another class cos guess what i just knew when i arrived at school about a few minutes to spare before the exam. I would like someone to enlighten me why was i only informed on the day of the exam maybe about 5 minutes to spare then maybe i can explain why i had not informed the rest of the class. And why would i not want to inform the class if i had known.

I may not be the best asst class rep but i tried and thats all that matters. To me. If you want any other explanations sure. You can ask me.

jobless :(

Still jobless:( but i am still on the lookout I hope i don't give up soon i want to keep looking but the way the whole job finding thing is going i just feel like abandoning the thought of finding one. But what keeps me going is that i can eventually get my damned MAC brushes and a few other stuff which i am in dire need of if i ever get a job.

Going to my aunt's house later cause she cut her finger accidently and got it stitched so going to visit her later.

....

So the outing with my classmates on thursday went quite well. But the food was mediocre. I need to get so many stuff but my budget is like a quarter of what i want to get :( EEEP i hope to get a job by hook or crook i just have to. My saturday was spent in my mum's room cause my dad's friends came.

Longest Post i think

wow things had turned ugly so fast between 2 of my classmates.I don't really know who to blame or is there anyone to blame. I know one did propose a plan with good intentions but you can't say the other cannot disagree with the plan, regardless good intention or not. But i think some statements were definately misintepreted and took personal by one.
i am the assistant class rep and it has been bugging me if i should have intervened at some point of time,but what say do i have when i do not know what happened between some of my classmates. So i kept my nose out of it, and i don't really know if what i did was right... but my friend said its not something i can solve so why bother and get myself into the mess even though i still wish i had done something. oh whatever. anyways i am going to step down from my post and hand it over to the next person very soon so...

Okay, i always write collective posts, most of the time. I update once a month/week and only update the highlight of the week/month. I think i want to change that maybe.

And i have been on the net doing research on MAC cosmetics brushes and foundation and i kind of know what to get next when i visit the MAC store soon. But i am on a budget so i might have to skip some of the brushes which are supposed to be must-haves or maybe should i just wait till xmas/hol season and get the machine made ones which are slightly inferior in quality compared to the full size hand made ones. Hmmpf i am lost.

AND just yesterday i tried for a job application at causeway point and it did not go anywhere. When i enquired about the job the guy cut me off by answering flatly that number 1 they needed employers 35 years old and above.
Why do they need 35 year old and above aunties who talk too much and can get spit inside the the hand-made choclates is beyond me. Urgh i need a part time job.

And why MAC had to collaborate with hello kitty.Yuck. I had checked out the eyeshadow palettes. The colours looked attractive enough even though i do not dig the hello kitty packaging. But after reading reviews about the palettes i have decided on not getting them. The colour pay-off is not vey good and the texture is slightly chalky according to reviewers. The MAC hello kitty collection is out in Singapore on 6th March 2009

And i ate pastamania with my mum like yesterday and would be going again with my classmates tommorow ;) hopefully everything goes well.

Now i am off to bake a ready made marinated chicken bought from cold storage :) and might later go to fix my heels which are worn off and the metal heel part is sticking out so i cannot walk properly in it.

I think this my longest post to date.

Treasure :)

omg i found the most awesome blog ever: all of the blog is dedicated to mary-kate and ashley olsen! its just beautiful. All the pictures of them in the blog got me soo very excited. I am going to be hooked onto the blog anyway the blog is
Olsens Anonymous

time to chill

Exams ae OVER yayayay!!!!
and my mum thinks it time that i help her do house work :(
she says she has had enough of me giving her excuses that i have to study grrr.
Anyway going to get my tromborg mineral foundation from ELLE magazine:) hope they are of good quality...

more shopping, cleaning my room junk, update my blog with pictures- and just being blah during hols
i don't even know how long are my holidays uh maybe 6 weeks? i think.

so first school year is over hmmph year two student soon.

hope this semester results are better than past sem should be better i just feel it.

ohhh k tats it gotta go help momma :(

waiting for HOLIDAYS

no update for long cause its exam time
BUT just two more exams and i am done for this year then its the much awaited holidays! just can't wait... :)


(i don't own the picture)
A GLOW IN THE DARK tatoo that is only visible under uv light. nice

Gossip girl eye candy <3

ed westwetwick the ultimate bad boy.


Ed westwick and chace crawford. Chace crawford is like a mannequin, he looks so perfect-too perfect at times. I am not in love with ed westwick but with chuck bass. lol.


Chuck bass/ed westwick again

Put this up to perk myself. It gets boring when you study for hours straight.




ohh. :) i can envision him singing- 'this is why i'm hot'

PIG EYEBALL

update.......
friday i cut a pig's eyeball. I imagined it to be like cutting a jelly but it was harder than that it was much thougher. Then got to see the lens, retina and blah blah blah....was cool anyway

saturday went to changi beach with family and cousins. Was kinda boring but it was an oppurtunity to catch up with cousins could have been better if we had played some games and if the irritating wind had stopped blowing. We overnighted there for a day and came back on sunday...

Exams are coming soon so the rest of Chinese new year holiday would be spent studying and perfecting my RWP report (HOPEFULLY) I never study when i say i would :(

Weekend and book seller

Saturday i went with kulsum to singapore poly open house
We had free popcorn and cotton candy. Yummie.
I was out of Singapore Poly by 12am plus i believe.
I had ordered the book 'I believe you' by Low Kay Hwa from a girl on friendster. She wanted to meet me at dover MRT around 12pm and she ended up coming at 1pm.
I was waiting at the MRT platform for about an 1 hour. When she had arrived she demanded that i come down to the ground level to collect the book from her as she did not want to pay the MRT fare to come up and meet me up at the platform. What audacity. The only reason that i wanted her to come up was so that she can pay for the fare. DUH. Dumb bitch. Since i was running late cos i was following kulsum to her friend's birthday party later in the evening i had to give in to that girl and go down to collect my book. I asked for $1 discount but she refused. 1 hour ok not just 15 or 20 mins. If she had something on she should have said so.
Customer Service Rating: -3784632307.


Then went to Aloha Changi for kulsum's friend birthday.It was okay: read boring. The food literally made me cry. Oh no not for more but for water. God it was soo damn spicy.Someone said my name sounded japanese. Weird that's the first time i got such a comment on my name. Then some random guy at the party dropped us at harbour front MRT cause it was nearer to our house. We had to leave before the real fun started. Yah so that took up my whole Saturday.

Nothing much happened on Sunday. Sunday is always my lazy day. Somehow everything seems slow on a sunday for me. But i hate sundays because the next day would be a school day.
I wish that blogger comes up with something that auto-checks our spelling so that i do not have to read again for spelling errors.

And good luck to everyone getting their GCSE o-level results today. I remember i was so nervous that i was shivering when i collected my results. haha. But all had went well for me i am sure it would be the same for all of you. We always picture the worst but it would turn out fine. I am just happy that i am done with it.

More results and crap stuff

woop! i got back my results for the rest of my papers. I truly am happy with my results this sem.
RWP,pathology,microbiology: for all these i scored above 70 yay! really not what i expected i thought i would just scrape through microbiology and pathology but i did more then that. Good for me. Hope i do the same for my finals.

Okay other stuff: i just got hooked into another author :Low Kay Hwa
he's stories are really good BUT i hate that his stories are set in Singapore.He even uses names of school's from singapore and i find that really irritating. Nevertheless i am going to get one of his books anyway just to know the end of the story which i had been reading online. Oh and he is an ex-student of singapore polytechnic
his website:www.goodybooks.com

Oh and i must buy 2 eye equipments to check eyes which would cost about $700-$900 my mum said she would pay for it i hope she just not change her mind about it.

and i know i said i would upload pictures but the picures are no way gonna reach me anytime soon cos some people just refuse to email the pictures to me hhmmph. Maybe i should just invest in a camera of my own?